Photograph

I want to cry, seeth, explode

spread my guts over half the planet

I want to die

broken alone with nobody close

I want to rot slowly into the ground

back into organic nutrients

assisting growth again and

conveniently forgotten

take me down to the waters edge

tie me up and push me in

quietly and without a tear

I'll float awhile and then pass under

I don't want to feel anything at all

like a photograph

a two dimensional walking talking

synthesis of nothing

I want freedom no pain no memories

no future and no past

no broken dreams

no unfulfilled wishes

only death and an end

1990